I hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday! I’m feeling a little overwhelmed today and I think sharing some of the things on my mind might help. Quickly before I go into that - my purchases from the A. Tierney sample sale arrived last week! So exciting...I especially love my giant pink monogrammed tote!
I’m feeling very pressured by my parents to get my CPA. I have an accounting degree and I only need to take 2 more classes (6 credits) to have the qualifications to sit for the CPA exam. I could have taken them before I graduated, but I just didn’t want to be away from Nicholas any longer. I love accounting (cool...I know) so it’s not that I wouldn’t like to be a CPA, but I’m just not sure I care enough about it to go through all the stress. I kind of feel like I could really throw myself into a career as a CPA and love it...if I didn’t want to have a family in the future. That’s not to say that many people don’t successfully do both, but I’m just not sure I am one of them.
I just started running and I’m shocked that I’m actually kind of loving it! Running with my ipod pretty much terrifies me (I don’t like not being able to hear what’s going on around me), so I bought the nike plus sportband to track my runs instead. I’ve only used it twice, but it’s so much fun! I am definitely a newbie runner so if anyone has any running advice I would really love to hear it!
I’m a little nervous about sharing this last issue, but I really think getting it off my chest will help! I struggle with my weight. I’m underweight and I hate it. I feel like I can’t talk about my weight issues because I’m afraid people will think I’m being insincere or vain. No matter what I do I cannot seem to get my weight above 98. I often feel like I’m being judged because of my weight (although it’s very likely that I’m just overly sensitive about it because it bothers me). I worry that I’ll have health problems because I don’t weigh enough. I constantly go back and forth between trying really hard to gain weight and then sort of giving up because I’m frustrated at not seeing any results. I’m actually kind of hoping that running will increase my appetite and help me gain weight.
On a much less important note, it's incredibly irritating because I love to shop and nothing fits me. I have to get everything I buy taken in - which is great on one hand because all my clothes are made to fit my body, but not so great on the other because I like nice clothes and tailoring for everything I buy just makes each item that much more expensive. A few stores (Ann Taylor, LOFT, J Crew, and Banana Republic) do carry some clothes in 00 petite (which I don’t have to get tailored), but the selection is really limited and I usually have to buy them online - which means I have to pay for shipping.
Thanks for bearing with me while I got all of that out! Advice/opinions are definitely welcome!